The Present. Selfish.
Hello~!
How are ya’ll? I had a great day on queensday and the day after queensday. Except for one thing. ” we needa talk.” We did and I prepared for wors-case scenario, but some how I don’t feel really down. I told him how I felt about us. So, now he knows. He said that he thought I was acting about how I was feeling. We talked on and on and probaly nothing changed. Too bad, he said he wish he could change that feeling, I some where wish that too.
I am a weak person and I know he knows that. Nothing going to change because the word ” no” towards him is like impossible. This present kind of sucks for me. T_T
I always want what I can’t have, bad habit, I guess..
I tried to capture a feeling in a photo. I Feel Lost.
So what now? I don’t know. I confessed my love ( sounds like a typical shojo anime =P ) and know he knows, will something change. I just don’t know. Let’s finish my story with a poem, like I said in my previous blog post this poem is called selfish.
Selfish.
Is it selfish to make me happy?
I always try to make those around me happy.
My own happiness is a failure, can’t help myself.
Selfish how I try to make him understand.
A little kid is what I am.
Grown-Up in her mind, but for the rest she’s nothing.
I just can’t stop myself from being me.
You accept me for me.
Selfish how I hoped you would understand.
Selfish how the world judges.
Selfish how I feel confused.
Because I know you weren’t honest.
I know you don’t want to hurt me.
I’m not trying to make you mine instantly.
I feel like I know more about you than you know about me.
We should fix that.
Selfish, what we did.
Selfish, this hope I have.
Selfish, how I fell in love even though I know your flaws.
Selfish, how you can control me.
Next Poem Will Be Called Weakness.
